You were denied me then,
for this is the way it is.
You had to feel and learn,
for freedom is your destiny.
I am sorry if you felt lost.
I am sorry if you felt alone.
I am sorry if you felt agony.
I am sorry, for this is the way it is.
I was not ready for you,
for I had lost myself.
I had to wander and search,
for peace was my destiny.
The peace I wandered for,
took me to places!
Beautiful places and people,
soulful flowers, and birds.
They told me about you.
The stories of lives you lived.
They reminded me of you.
The stories of our journey.
The peace I wandered for,
was within me which was lost.
For the world is monstrous,
and the search was painful.
In search of myself and peace,
I have now become bitter!
I now do not let anyone in,
to see me and my peace.
Now I wait in light for you,
to come with your stories.
And when you will come,
I fear the door will be shut.
The door to my soul,
is locked with thorns.
Every time a soul knocked,
I wished it was you.
But it has been ages now,
that I have been waiting.
I now fear to open the door,
for all I have is me and my peace.
You were denied me then,
for this is the way it is.
You might again be denied,
but I promise the magic of time.
I know from all my search,
that in time, you will arrive.
And you will have the key,
not just to my heart,
but to our soul!
And when you do,
I promise it will be beautiful.
For I have come a long way,
and the beauty of the journey is us!
I promise I will preserve myself,
for our soul to grow and mature.
I promise in every life,
I will search for you,
I will wait for you.
And I promise in every life,
when we unite,
we conquer universes,
with our flame!
ego feels..! 